My Husband and I had a wonderful weekend planned. We were going to celebrate Valentine’s day (yes, a week late) by splurging on a fancy dinner…ALONE! In our home this happens no more than twice a year and I am completely fine with that. Let me stop here and reiterate…I really am fine with that. I love our simple life (that is totally anything but simple in our eyes) and we both love spending time with the kids in tow. So expensive dates out alone are not a priority at this time and we’re both okay with it. BUT, come time for that date, I am so ready to dress like a grown up, drive in the car with my handsome date, talk about grown up things (okay, it’s still usually about the kids) and even enjoy a glass of wine and desert (without sharing the latter)! So our weekend was planned and the girls were looking forward to spending a few hours away from home with my dear Aunt and her friend. Perfection.
Then, the night before our ‘big date’ just before the ‘bed time prep’ began, my phone rang and it was OCS.
“I understand that you used to foster Lulu…can you take a placement tonight?”. Everything stopped. My heart began to race as I asked “Does Lulu need us?” I asked.
“Yes. Can you come pick her up?” Half an hour later I was buckling Lulu up in our car and as I shut the door, I was overwhelmed with these words, “God LOVES you, little one…He has got you covered.” And he does.
Since we have kept a good relationship with Lulu and her Mama, coming to our home again was an easy transition. She was still used to the house, LOVES the girls and couldn’t wait to ‘love on’ the cats (poor cats)!
Ron had put the play yard together while we were gone and she was sleeping soundly within 30 minutes of arriving. I, on the other hand was full of adrenaline and stuck in high gear. Full of mixed emotions that I could not process, I laid awake till 5AM (stopping to read the Bible at some point…praying…seeking and waiting for sleep). Once I did fall asleep however, it was short-lived. A sound woke me at 8:30 and I was up…mind racing again. “Lord please give me the strength needed today to love on these girls” I’ve prayed this a lot and God has ALWAYS provided. That night was our date-night and I was still determined to make it so I called my Aunt to see if she was up for ‘one more princess’ and she was more than happy to see little Lulu again (thank you, Lord for those who are willing to love with us)!
I opted to wear ‘trendy/comfy jeans’ with my new boots instead of the feminine dress I had received from Zulily…3 1/2 hours of sleep does not allow for uncomfy dress wearing. But Ron, being the amazing, God-sent Husband he is, raved over my ‘metro-cowgirl style’ throughout the evening. Yes, he’s pretty awesome. We dropped all the girls off with my Aunt and spent the next couple of hours, RELAXING and taking a much-needed breath over an overly priced, but yummy dinner with a glass of wine, desert and even a cup of coffee. Ahhh…perfection, still. We spent the evening dissecting all that had happened the night before…trying to process what it meant for us, for Lulu and for her Mom and in the end we were just happy to take it all one day at a time. Once we had stretched dinner to its ultimate max, we headed to Wal-Mart…Don’t laugh (okay, laugh a little…we did)! Yes, we headed to Wal-Mart to buy some socks and other miscellaneous items for Lulu that she needed. I know, it’s all so very romantic 😉 We had a wonderful time (even with painting the town red at Wal-Mart) and topped our evening off with a couple of hours at my Aunt’s home, catching up, laughing and taking in the madness of all the little ones playing wildly into the late night. Lulu has grown so much (walking….rather RUNNING all of the place) and she now insists on wearing a purse over one shoulder at all times. Have to say, I think our house of princesses left an impression!
It’s now been 5 days and life has returned to beautiful chaos with a toddler in tow. It’s wonderful. Lulu is a blessing and I am amazed at how easily she fits right back in where she left off.
We are still praying for God’s will and praying also for Lulu’s Mama and her struggles. Over the past few months we had grown much closer to her and both Ron and I hurt for her and her loss. I am still trying to figure out just ‘how’ to pray for her now. Hm.
So we do not know for how long Lulu will be with us (a meeting is scheduled with OCS for next Tuesday, to hopefully shed some light) but somehow it doesn’t matter all that much. My ‘theme’ this time around is “One day at a time“. I have to say, it’s so different going into this, the second time around…after having been so fully covered by Christ the first time. It’s amazing to see God work in such great ways…providing fully in all things that truly it leaves nothing to fear. I only wish that I could have learned this truth, earlier in life but am thankful to know it and to benefit from its peace now.
Thank you Lord, for watching over this little one! I pray your continued protection over her heart and against any confusion she might feel. I also pray for her Mama…that you would keep her safe and that your will would be done in hers and Lulu’s lives. Please provide enough for today, to do your work. Amen.